Well, we made it back safe and sound from Costa Rica with some incredible memories and unbelievable stories to last a lifetime. Upon return I decided to spend a semi-relaxing week at home with my family before making the final move back to Butler for what will hopefully be my last semester of undergrad! Our senior house is coming together piece by piece, and unfortunately the couch cushion pieces don't fit yet... My list of necessities grows by the minute as I am learning how much it takes to fill a six bedroom house.
After a month long separation, I finally got to spend time with Emily on Saturday night, and we went to church at Common Ground on Sunday which for me was the first time in too long. We all know how easy it is when you skip church one Sunday to make a little habit out of it, and especially after a 3-week hiatus in Central America, getting out of bed Sunday morning was difficult.
The worship Sunday morning was incredible. That's one of my favorite things about Common Ground is the 15-20 high-energy worship session that starts off the service. The current pastor isn't my favorite from Common Ground, but usually I still am able to take something meaningful away from his sermons.
Yesterday, Jeff spoke about a passage in Acts, and the idea of living to serve not to be served. He stressed the importance of carrying out our actions without expecting something in return, and about how important it is to make your spiritual needs known because there is probably someone out there whose needs complement your own.
I've experienced the power of prayer before, specifically while I was living in The Netherlands, but as you know this is such an intriguing concept for me. However, once you personally feel the power of prayer you can no longer deny the grace and power of God. These past few weeks I just feel myself running in the wrong direction, but constantly being reminded that no matter how hard I resist, Jesus still has my heart on a leash. Last night as I tossed and turned in my bed, preoccupied about jobs and money among other things I knew what I needed to do was pray, but I found myself unable to put words and thoughts together. It was almost as if I felt that I didn't deserve to be praying for myself, and I just have been so distant and inconsistent in my conversations with God lately that I just couldn't pray, and that scares me.
So, I'm asking you to help me. If you're reading this, I'm desperate for prayer and I also want to pray for you. I need to see if I can help someone else, because I'm finding it impossible to help myself. Please don't hesitate to reach out to me if you've something impending on your heart, because I love to listen and I want to pray for you!
Peace & blessings :)
Monday, June 10, 2013
Tuesday, May 14, 2013
Me encanta Costa Rica!
Hola amigos y amigas!
After 2 full days in Costa Rica I am so tired I could die, and its not even 8 PM! I would like to share with you a brief schedule of what our days are like here (or at least what they have been for the past 2 days) and after I will share some thoughts and opinions of my time so far!
A typical day so far:
6:30 AM: wake up, get dressed eat breakfast. Breakfast consists of fresh fruit like pineapple, papaya, melon, and bananas, coffee with milk and "azucar negro" which is essentially brown sugar, and a tiny quesadilla with cheese. It sounds weird but it all is so good! Especially the coffee!!!
7:30: catch the bus about 2 blocks from our house and take about a 25 minute bus ride to ILISA (the school). The traffic here is out of control. If you thought the bikes/trams/cars/buses in Amsterdam were crazy, compared to San Jose they are nothing. The roads are more steep than the hills I go skiing down in Michigan. And the drivers are the definition of loco. I will try to take a video of what the streets are like because it is just downright dangerous.
8:30: arrive at ILISA. After the bus ride we have about another 20-25 minute walk from the bus stop to the school. The past two days we have had activities at 8:30. Today was a walking tour of San Jose, the capital of Costa Rica. Even though the scenery is incredible and unlike anything I've ever seen, the city was very dirty, with trash literally everywhere. It's also extremely loud with all the traffic and multitudes of people. I've definitely decided that a crowded city is NOT for me.
12:00: eat lunch at school and get ready for our tutoring session.
1:00: a one-on-one tutoring session. Yesterday we had a small interview and then they paired us with a teacher who can help us most with our problem areas or levels of Spanish. My tutors name is Ilse and she is great! We work in a workbook, but we also have lots of conversations and I have found it very easy to tell her stories and important aspects of my life at home in the states.
4:00: the tutoring session ends and we either go home or have an after school activity. Today we had a dance lesson of Merengue and Salsa! It was fun, but in a very small room with about 30 people and no ventilation! But I learned how to move to the Costa Rican music, and hopefully I will get to try it out this weekend!
After the dance lesson myself along with a few other girls decided to try to find a place to have some margaritas before returning home for dinner. We asked for directions but inevitably got lost and wound up in a "bar" with a bar tender who didn't know what a margarita was..... So we got the heck out of dodge and decided to just go home.
By this time it was about 6 and near dark out. The instructors at ILISA told us not to take the bus after 7, and today was the first day we had to take the bus home alone....
My roommate Katie and I were kind of freaking out, but we managed to find our bus stop, and recognize where we needed to get off the bus by our house. I can not even begin to explain how big of a miracle this was. God was holding our hands because there is absolutely no stinkin' way we did this on our own!
For dinner last night we had the most delicious carne asada steak I have ever had, with fresh, homemade pico de gallo, scalloped potatoes, and freshly made mango juice. I could have eaten for 4 hours. It was unbelievably fantastic. Tonight we had a cream of squash soup, a fresh salad with lettuce, tomato, onion, cilantro, corn, and pineapple, and a sort of chicken pot pie kind of dish. Can you believe I ate every last bite?! I didn't think I liked squash but this soup was incredible, and that salad? I never eat salad and I had 2 platefuls. Sandra is a wizard in the kitchen, I want to bring her back with me to cook for me next year!
After dinner Katie and I take quick showers and try to be in bed by 9! It sounds early but after a 14+ hour day it's not early enough because tomorrow we get to get up and do it all again!
While at times it is difficult to speak with Sandra especially (she is very strictly only Spanish with Katie and I) I have been trying to talk with them more, and I think I am getting through to them. However, Katie has less experience with Spanish and so our host parents mostly only talk to me! No pressure though...
I can't believe only two days have gone by and I'm in love with this country! I am so excited to see the beach this weekend and other places outside of San Jose. I have even started thinking in Spanish! In fact it has been kind of hard switching gears to English in order to write this post, so I apologize if my grammar is a bit off ;)
I hope you have enjoyed, hasta mañana!
After 2 full days in Costa Rica I am so tired I could die, and its not even 8 PM! I would like to share with you a brief schedule of what our days are like here (or at least what they have been for the past 2 days) and after I will share some thoughts and opinions of my time so far!
A typical day so far:
6:30 AM: wake up, get dressed eat breakfast. Breakfast consists of fresh fruit like pineapple, papaya, melon, and bananas, coffee with milk and "azucar negro" which is essentially brown sugar, and a tiny quesadilla with cheese. It sounds weird but it all is so good! Especially the coffee!!!
7:30: catch the bus about 2 blocks from our house and take about a 25 minute bus ride to ILISA (the school). The traffic here is out of control. If you thought the bikes/trams/cars/buses in Amsterdam were crazy, compared to San Jose they are nothing. The roads are more steep than the hills I go skiing down in Michigan. And the drivers are the definition of loco. I will try to take a video of what the streets are like because it is just downright dangerous.
8:30: arrive at ILISA. After the bus ride we have about another 20-25 minute walk from the bus stop to the school. The past two days we have had activities at 8:30. Today was a walking tour of San Jose, the capital of Costa Rica. Even though the scenery is incredible and unlike anything I've ever seen, the city was very dirty, with trash literally everywhere. It's also extremely loud with all the traffic and multitudes of people. I've definitely decided that a crowded city is NOT for me.
12:00: eat lunch at school and get ready for our tutoring session.
1:00: a one-on-one tutoring session. Yesterday we had a small interview and then they paired us with a teacher who can help us most with our problem areas or levels of Spanish. My tutors name is Ilse and she is great! We work in a workbook, but we also have lots of conversations and I have found it very easy to tell her stories and important aspects of my life at home in the states.
4:00: the tutoring session ends and we either go home or have an after school activity. Today we had a dance lesson of Merengue and Salsa! It was fun, but in a very small room with about 30 people and no ventilation! But I learned how to move to the Costa Rican music, and hopefully I will get to try it out this weekend!
After the dance lesson myself along with a few other girls decided to try to find a place to have some margaritas before returning home for dinner. We asked for directions but inevitably got lost and wound up in a "bar" with a bar tender who didn't know what a margarita was..... So we got the heck out of dodge and decided to just go home.
By this time it was about 6 and near dark out. The instructors at ILISA told us not to take the bus after 7, and today was the first day we had to take the bus home alone....
My roommate Katie and I were kind of freaking out, but we managed to find our bus stop, and recognize where we needed to get off the bus by our house. I can not even begin to explain how big of a miracle this was. God was holding our hands because there is absolutely no stinkin' way we did this on our own!
For dinner last night we had the most delicious carne asada steak I have ever had, with fresh, homemade pico de gallo, scalloped potatoes, and freshly made mango juice. I could have eaten for 4 hours. It was unbelievably fantastic. Tonight we had a cream of squash soup, a fresh salad with lettuce, tomato, onion, cilantro, corn, and pineapple, and a sort of chicken pot pie kind of dish. Can you believe I ate every last bite?! I didn't think I liked squash but this soup was incredible, and that salad? I never eat salad and I had 2 platefuls. Sandra is a wizard in the kitchen, I want to bring her back with me to cook for me next year!
After dinner Katie and I take quick showers and try to be in bed by 9! It sounds early but after a 14+ hour day it's not early enough because tomorrow we get to get up and do it all again!
While at times it is difficult to speak with Sandra especially (she is very strictly only Spanish with Katie and I) I have been trying to talk with them more, and I think I am getting through to them. However, Katie has less experience with Spanish and so our host parents mostly only talk to me! No pressure though...
I can't believe only two days have gone by and I'm in love with this country! I am so excited to see the beach this weekend and other places outside of San Jose. I have even started thinking in Spanish! In fact it has been kind of hard switching gears to English in order to write this post, so I apologize if my grammar is a bit off ;)
I hope you have enjoyed, hasta mañana!
Sunday, May 12, 2013
Bienvenidos a Costa Rica!
In case you haven't heard, I arrived in San Jose, Costa Rica this morning at about 11 AM local time! I thought it would be a good and efficient way to keep track of my journey here if I try to blog/journal everyday, especially today being my first! I think I'm going to do a bit of a bullet-type synopsis and add more details when necessary, and don't spell check my work because I'm typing on an iPad... Hello carpal tunnel!
Well this morning I woke up at 3 am after staying up until 1:30 watching Kristen Wiig's SNL comeback last night, which solicited what I'm sure was the most unattractive sight ever of me face down on an airplane tray table just trying to stay alive.
After a brief layover in Houston, we made our way to Central America and then took a shuttle to ILISA- our school for the next 3 weeks. Standing outside the school were our families, holding cute little signs with our names on them! I along with another Butler student, Katie are living in a beautiful house (pictures will come) with Gustavo and Sandra and their daughter, Luisa, who lives in a connected apartment in the back yard.
Our host family has been instructed to speak solely in Spanish with us, but with a pretty significant language barrier, Gustavo told us he's ok with some Spanglish. Thank The Lord!
We enjoyed a small meal after having a tour of the house, but it was very quiet and kind of awkward. I feel like I have so many things I want to ask and say but I just don't have all the words I need to do it. While that has been a bit frustrating this evening, I will say that I have done significantly better communicating with Gustavo and Sandra than I expected and I'm proud of myself for that!
I took a little siesta after lunch, then drowned my first GIANT spider in a quick shower before watching How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days in Spanish with Sandra and Katie.
For a light dinner Luisa and her husband (whose name escapes me at the moment) came over and we had delicious tomato, pesto, and mozzarella sandwiches! Yum!
Even though it is only 9:00 here, I am ready for bed to getup for a 7:30 wake up call! I know this post is brief and not necessarily up to my usual caliber, but I promise there will be many more interesting and fabulous posts to come!
Hasta mañana!
Well this morning I woke up at 3 am after staying up until 1:30 watching Kristen Wiig's SNL comeback last night, which solicited what I'm sure was the most unattractive sight ever of me face down on an airplane tray table just trying to stay alive.
After a brief layover in Houston, we made our way to Central America and then took a shuttle to ILISA- our school for the next 3 weeks. Standing outside the school were our families, holding cute little signs with our names on them! I along with another Butler student, Katie are living in a beautiful house (pictures will come) with Gustavo and Sandra and their daughter, Luisa, who lives in a connected apartment in the back yard.
Our host family has been instructed to speak solely in Spanish with us, but with a pretty significant language barrier, Gustavo told us he's ok with some Spanglish. Thank The Lord!
We enjoyed a small meal after having a tour of the house, but it was very quiet and kind of awkward. I feel like I have so many things I want to ask and say but I just don't have all the words I need to do it. While that has been a bit frustrating this evening, I will say that I have done significantly better communicating with Gustavo and Sandra than I expected and I'm proud of myself for that!
I took a little siesta after lunch, then drowned my first GIANT spider in a quick shower before watching How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days in Spanish with Sandra and Katie.
For a light dinner Luisa and her husband (whose name escapes me at the moment) came over and we had delicious tomato, pesto, and mozzarella sandwiches! Yum!
Even though it is only 9:00 here, I am ready for bed to getup for a 7:30 wake up call! I know this post is brief and not necessarily up to my usual caliber, but I promise there will be many more interesting and fabulous posts to come!
Hasta mañana!
Wednesday, May 8, 2013
So you're a Spanish major...
By now as an avid follower of my blog, you must know I am a Spanish major. When I first came to Butler I was Exploratory (fancy word for undecided), then I declared a double major in Spanish and Communication Sciences and Disorders (fancy for Speech and Language Pathology), and then shortly before departing for Amsterdam I dropped to a minor in CSD and am solely a Spanish major.
Towards the middle of the video there is a movie reference, so please don't become confused with the transition/slightly idiotic remark. It's all part of the effect :)
Whew.
Now, mind you I did not switch to being solely a Spanish major because I have some wildly ambitious desire to become a citizen of South America, or a sudden passion to teach the Spanish language to our Nation's youth. I actually dropped my CSD major because it is an extremely competitive field, and I didn't have the passion and intense interest necessary to devote my undergraduate and subsequent graduate careers in this field. At least not right now.
Well, this little switcheroo flew over like a lead balloon in the Peters household as my family has a hard time understanding why I would switch from a focus in a field where I am guaranteed a specific job in a demanded market, to one of the most general Liberal Arts degrees with millions of possible career routes, which might not even have to do with Spanish at all.
Cue the question that makes my hair fall out, my fists clench, and my eyes roll back into my head...
So, what are you going to do with a Spanish major?
Well, quite frankly I'm going to do whatever the hell I want with a Spanish major.
Yes, I know that's a broad area of possibility.
Yes, I understand it might be hard to find a job that will utilize this skill in a field I am interested in.
And for the love of all that is holy, no, I am not fluent in Spanish.
If I had a beer for every time someone asked me something along these lines I could stock the Hofbrauhaus for a year, including Oktoberfest. So, in honor of such a heated and apparently interesting topic, I have devoted a vlog to this constant source of frustration and clarification in my life today.
Thursday, May 2, 2013
My Vlog debut
Alright folks, here it is...
My debut vlog..
How it makes me feel when my bike gets stolen.
If you haven't heard this story, which would be a surprise.. because I tell it every 5 seconds... you can now watch it at your own leisure!
So, lemme know what you think, if you like it, ideas, whatever! I'm not super familiar with iMovie so I just kinda messed around, and yes that is Gilmore Girls in the background.
My debut vlog..
How it makes me feel when my bike gets stolen.
If you haven't heard this story, which would be a surprise.. because I tell it every 5 seconds... you can now watch it at your own leisure!
So, lemme know what you think, if you like it, ideas, whatever! I'm not super familiar with iMovie so I just kinda messed around, and yes that is Gilmore Girls in the background.
Wednesday, May 1, 2013
A New Endeavor
If you're reading this, thanks for being patient! It's been at least 3 months since I've blogged and I have been asked approximately 1,000,000 times when I'm going to blog again! So here I am! I'm back and so excited to fill this summer full of witty, fun, and hopefully inspiring posts :)
This semester has been all kinds of interesting. From classes, to being 21, to work, to just adjusting to the American lifestyle I have barely had time to breathe.
One awesome thing that did happen this semester, was that I had the opportunity to take a creative writing class! I took it just as a general elective with a mixture of English majors among others. The professor was awesome, to some he might have come off as rude or arrogant, but I was usually intrigued by his knowledge and his passion for writing.
One of the projects we had to do for his class was to make a video. That was the only requirement. Just a video.
He mentioned that it should be a form of personal essay, so basically something you want to make a video of, and could only be 1 minute long. Sounds easy?
I probably came up with 100 ideas, but nothing really stuck. I wanted this video to stand out, to be powerful, to resonate with people. Then it came to me.
I began to pool my little ideas, and collectively they came together to form a movement. Similar to my attitude here on my blog, I will use my wit and my charming sarcasm in a series of short little videos under the theme:
This semester has been all kinds of interesting. From classes, to being 21, to work, to just adjusting to the American lifestyle I have barely had time to breathe.
One awesome thing that did happen this semester, was that I had the opportunity to take a creative writing class! I took it just as a general elective with a mixture of English majors among others. The professor was awesome, to some he might have come off as rude or arrogant, but I was usually intrigued by his knowledge and his passion for writing.
One of the projects we had to do for his class was to make a video. That was the only requirement. Just a video.
He mentioned that it should be a form of personal essay, so basically something you want to make a video of, and could only be 1 minute long. Sounds easy?
I probably came up with 100 ideas, but nothing really stuck. I wanted this video to stand out, to be powerful, to resonate with people. Then it came to me.
I began to pool my little ideas, and collectively they came together to form a movement. Similar to my attitude here on my blog, I will use my wit and my charming sarcasm in a series of short little videos under the theme:
How it makes me feel when....
I'm busting with cute little angsty ideas, and I'm going to debut them here on my blog, and also on YouTube. Who knows? This could be my ticket to that far fetched dream of being on SNL.. only time will tell.
Keep your eye out for more posts and my YouTube debut coming soon to an interweb near you, and if you have any suggestions for video topics, let me know!
Monday, January 28, 2013
Back on my grind
Well I've been back in the states now for about 5 weeks, and I hate to say that this is my first blog post following my semester in Amsterdam. I have been dying to put my words out there since the moment we landed on United States soil, but unfortunately things like Christmas, my 21st birthday, sorority recruitment, and class have all but put me into a stress/homesick/culture shock related coma. Yet here I am at midnight, when I should be in the cold dorm REM-ing for my 9:30 class tomorrow, trying to put into appropriate words how it feels to be home, and doing what I'm doing.
To say I underestimated coming home to culture shock would be an underestimation of the grandest kind. Like you probably know, by the end of my trip I was very excited and ready to be coming home. I was ready for my bed, my cat, my food, my home.
Of all the things I learned while I was gone, it was how much I value my home and my family. It kills me to think how much I took them for granted before now.
But I thought that since I wanted to come home so badly, that I was ready. And in a sense I was. The holidays were wonderful, and I mostly sat around the house, resting and just soaking in family time. The real kicker came when I had to move back to Butler.
I was so anxious and excited to see everyone, move back into DG, and get into a somewhat normal routine after my semester of intermittent classes and frequent travel. However, the stress of homework mixed with the estrogen cascading out of a house of 90 women mixed with this new super paranoid homesickness I have acquired leaves me frazzled on most every occasion. To spare you the gory details, I'm just still pretty overwhelmed at having to consider so many thoughts and opinions other than my own.
I don't think people would often consider me a selfish person, but after living (basically) on my own for such an extended period of time, in a place completely foreign and uncomfortable, it's nearly annoying to have to deal with petty conversations and minuscule details in a life that I now find so huge and unexplored and inviting.
And I'm not even trying to be harsh, but it's like this:
There are about 5,678,992 thoughts, fears, worries, and dreams swarming around my brain that I have never known about, that I have never had to harness, that I have never even realized were there, and I just feel like there is so much more to life than some of the silly, meaningless CRAP we are exposed to every day. Why deal with it?
Why spread information about something you don't actually have accurate information about?
Why not do things you really want or need to do instead of doing something you're half-hearted about and are going to regret or be ashamed of later?
Why not go off by yourself if you alone are more enriching company than those around you?
Do things that matter to you. Say things that mean something to you. Be who you want to be. Because in the long run that is all that matters. If you feel like you need to impress someone in your life, why are they in your life? The people who really care about YOU don't care about "you".
What I mean is, after living out of a suitcase for 4 months, if my friends actually care that my outfits seldom match and I don't take the time for makeup everyday, they're not my friends! Because I know I have wonderful friends all over the world now who appreciate me for exactly who I am because when you are forced to live out of the confines of your comfort zone you are going to put your real, true self out there because you don't have time or energy to be someone you're not. And when you only have 4 months to spend with someone, if they are really a caring soul, they care about who you are on the inside. Happy or sad, elated or mad, dirty or clean, whatever.
I don't want this to come across cross (no pun intended) because I feel like most of my posting from abroad could be construed as negative. I am very grateful to be home, and in the new, fresh, invigorating mindset that I am in. But I am also very aware that if I'm not careful I could fall back into the ways of this world and that is a reality I refuse to accept. Life is too short for petty. Life is too short for meaningless. Everything you do should be for the greater good of something, no matter what you believe in. You owe it to God. You owe it to yourself.
To say I underestimated coming home to culture shock would be an underestimation of the grandest kind. Like you probably know, by the end of my trip I was very excited and ready to be coming home. I was ready for my bed, my cat, my food, my home.
Of all the things I learned while I was gone, it was how much I value my home and my family. It kills me to think how much I took them for granted before now.
But I thought that since I wanted to come home so badly, that I was ready. And in a sense I was. The holidays were wonderful, and I mostly sat around the house, resting and just soaking in family time. The real kicker came when I had to move back to Butler.
I was so anxious and excited to see everyone, move back into DG, and get into a somewhat normal routine after my semester of intermittent classes and frequent travel. However, the stress of homework mixed with the estrogen cascading out of a house of 90 women mixed with this new super paranoid homesickness I have acquired leaves me frazzled on most every occasion. To spare you the gory details, I'm just still pretty overwhelmed at having to consider so many thoughts and opinions other than my own.
I don't think people would often consider me a selfish person, but after living (basically) on my own for such an extended period of time, in a place completely foreign and uncomfortable, it's nearly annoying to have to deal with petty conversations and minuscule details in a life that I now find so huge and unexplored and inviting.
I don't have time to do homework for classes I'm required to take, not when I could be researching future careers or concocting adventures or sleeping!
I don't want to be in an environment where people feel ostracized or neglected or persecuted for their opinions and feelings.
And I most certainly don't feel it necessary to deal with people who don't feel it necessary to deal with me.
And I'm not even trying to be harsh, but it's like this:
There are about 5,678,992 thoughts, fears, worries, and dreams swarming around my brain that I have never known about, that I have never had to harness, that I have never even realized were there, and I just feel like there is so much more to life than some of the silly, meaningless CRAP we are exposed to every day. Why deal with it?
Why spread information about something you don't actually have accurate information about?
Why not do things you really want or need to do instead of doing something you're half-hearted about and are going to regret or be ashamed of later?
Why not go off by yourself if you alone are more enriching company than those around you?
Do things that matter to you. Say things that mean something to you. Be who you want to be. Because in the long run that is all that matters. If you feel like you need to impress someone in your life, why are they in your life? The people who really care about YOU don't care about "you".
What I mean is, after living out of a suitcase for 4 months, if my friends actually care that my outfits seldom match and I don't take the time for makeup everyday, they're not my friends! Because I know I have wonderful friends all over the world now who appreciate me for exactly who I am because when you are forced to live out of the confines of your comfort zone you are going to put your real, true self out there because you don't have time or energy to be someone you're not. And when you only have 4 months to spend with someone, if they are really a caring soul, they care about who you are on the inside. Happy or sad, elated or mad, dirty or clean, whatever.
However you are, that's how you should be.
I don't want this to come across cross (no pun intended) because I feel like most of my posting from abroad could be construed as negative. I am very grateful to be home, and in the new, fresh, invigorating mindset that I am in. But I am also very aware that if I'm not careful I could fall back into the ways of this world and that is a reality I refuse to accept. Life is too short for petty. Life is too short for meaningless. Everything you do should be for the greater good of something, no matter what you believe in. You owe it to God. You owe it to yourself.
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