It's been a while since I've written, but today after braving hour after hour of intense storms I have been inspired.
With all the hype of the world supposedly ending on 12/21/12, I have been in a constant state of paranoia, trying to prove people wrong about this devastating idea. & now that all of these natural disasters are occurring within days of each other I can't help but think that the end really is near.
Being the Christian that I am, I believe that the end of the world will culminate with the coming of Jesus back to Earth. However, being the avid Bible reader that I (regretfully) am not, I have never been exactly sure about how the Bible says it will happen.
I have heard many things,
the world will end in destruction.
the world will end after waves of disasters.
the end will be horrible for those who don't get to go back with Jesus.
But what is it?
I want to know what is going to happen & I want to know that I get to leave with Him.
There in lies the problem.
I'm pretty sure that being scared, afraid, and upset about the end of the world is the exact opposite of how God wants me to feel about it.
I should be excited that he could be coming back tomorrow.
Ecstatic that I could go to heaven with him.
Grateful for the time I have gotten to spend on this Earth.
And anything but regretful for the time I have not.
But I'm terrified of leaving Earth. I am so excited for the life I have left to live. I am devastated at the thought of never graduating college, getting married, traveling, & starting a family.
Does that mean I don't get to go to heaven?
Because I like living on Earth?
I know heaven is where it's at. I absolutely want to go. I want to radiate with God's word in order to earn my spot in heaven. I want to see my uncle Brian, my grandma Fagan, and my first dog. I want to live eternal life and have happiness forever.
But is it so bad to be pretty excited for earthly happiness too?
So, while I'm still very stressed about missing out on my living life, and not getting to do all the things I have planned, I would hate to wake up tomorrow morning and read the newspaper headlines that say,
"Jesus Came Last Night."
I have definitely had the same thoughts on the end of the world at different times in my life! I think you should pick up Rob Bell's newest book "Love Wins." It will change your whole perspective (and make you do a lot of thinking) on what heaven and the end of the world even are. (*I'm also not saying I agree with 100% of the book, either. It's just a really good read!)
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